- damn it!

i had this idea before about blogging - do not ever post the most hidden ideas that you have because other people might use them one day

but now…

what the fuck! nobody’s even checking out this blog anyway and i do not have any time to write stuffs on paper and pen anymore.

anyway…

ces’t la vie..

 i have been trying to sell myself lately looking for some decent online writing jobs - part time or full time, whichever as long as they accept me. I NEED the money (notice the all caps) and i need something to help me get away from my job. 

although the selling one’s self is actually difficult - the number of hours i spent trying to look for job postings, the meeting-the-expectations part is actally more difficult (as if i had just given you a new idea to ponder on, tsk tsk tsk). but anyway, life sucks and here i was thinking that i could actually manage to fit everything into their places - one box for my kid,one box for my work, one box for my life and all the other boxes that i need for all the things rammed in my almost-nothing existence…hahahahaha

so much for trying to lure people in this blog…one prospect client actually told me that a lot of people usually write about bas stuffs - but he wants to have something positive because it creates positive aura that is good for business…positive aura my ass…hahahahha..in this world nowadays, if you are really happy with your life, why would you still write about it. i meanm happiness is something you experience, savor because it doesn’t happen much often. you don’t say, “oh i’m so happy, i’m gonna write about it!” instead you say “i’m happy, period.”

also, if you are happy, the feeling is always momentary and never long-lasting. so when you already have the necessities to write about something, the feeling is not there anymore.

duh! whatever. other people, if ever they would have the chance of clicking this site, much more finish reading this article, and much more comment on it,  might just berate every little thing i said about this stuff. see - people are not happy so they try to toss their agression on other people. hahahahahhahaha!